Revolving Door Policy

As I get more "experienced" in this not too shabby life of mine, I've begun to lean more and more towards a revolving door policy. Put simply, it means that I meet people, and they come into my life sometimes as quickly as they go. Not always of course, and this revolving door metaphor may make it sound harsh, but I don't feel that at all.

See, the best relationships I've ever had with many folks stem from the moments we've spent together. The greatest memories I've had with people have been moments. Sometimes those moments are hours, or days, even weeks or months, or undetermined amounts of time. But that doesn't detract from the idea that they are still all lived moments.

The reason I use the revolving door analogy, is that sometimes the door spins fast, sometimes it doesn't spin at all and you're stuck with each other, or sometimes we stop the door from revolving so we don't have to say good-bye as quickly. But at some point or other, we turn that door and head off to our next adventure in life.

Now some may think this can sound a bit sad perhaps. But I think that stuff like this is what life's made out of. I live and crave uncertainty and change. It's the only stable thing I've ever found, ever. The people I meet will change, they will come and go, they will do their own thing, they may call me, they may not. Yet, I always have my own life to live, and I will also change.

When we meet at the revolving door, I try to make the best of it. Greet that new person with a smile, and hope that all goes well. And sometimes the loves of your life walk through this door. Sometimes they stay for a while, or they go and come back quickly, or they pop in every so often to check if your okay, what you've been up to. After all, on opposite ends of the door is entirely different yet always connected experiences of existence.

I like to take focusing on relationships with a grain of salt. Because I never know how long they will last. Not only that, but anything can happen at any time. Rather than worry about when I will see so and so again or inhibit myself from growing simply because I feel obligated to someone (anyone), I kind of just try to make the best of each moment shared together. This is why I tend to have quite intricate conversations with people I just met, I tend to have few, but very good and true friends, and I tend to take the time to know a person in their entirety. I love watching others and learning all the beauty that makes us all intricate yet delicate beings in this thing called existence. I love smiles, I love tears, I love joy, I love love, and above all, I love to feel. Feeling for me is the best part of being alive. All those emotions and wonderful things, all the "good" all the "bad." And I love it when I discover a new feeling I never knew existed until I felt it. I'm a very sentient being.

A revolving door sort of suits how I feel at the moment. I know that people come and go, but my door is always open, always revolving, always willing to let folks in. And for those that don't fit, well sometimes I take off the hinges, or I go out of my door to greet them. A shop owner doesn't always have to stay at their shop, in fact, the outside world holds many treasures and wonders and useful information for that shop owner to benefit from.

So if you walk through my door and we hit it off, I have a tendency to radiate pure emotion. I have this craving and desire to feel with you, to simply let all the emotions we all have to surface and to feel and deal with them. Life is not always pleasant, and sometimes emotions go down bitterly or you even choke on them sometimes. But that should never keep us from feeling them. Rather, we should try and figure out why it tasted so bitter in the first place, and how we can prevent choking in the future.

I love it when cool people walk through my door, and it's cool when I step out of my door too. After all, why not learn from each other, why not feel together, and why not simply learn from what emotions can teach you. Some of the deepest and most important life lessons come from feeling and living through the most powerful of emotions. And with that, my door keeps revolving.