Interpreting Dreams

You know, they say you shouldn't read too much into your dreams, but since when have I ever listened to what they say?

I'm a pretty self-aware person, I mean I write many blogs about myself and experiences, and writing is only one avenue I have for exploring myself. My dreams for the past 2 months or so have been very interesting, and I understand most of them, where they are coming from, and how to deal with them.

Dreaming for me is a bit more than just going to sleep and reabsorbing the day's events, it's that also of course. Yet there's always been a part of my dreams where I feel connected to others, very much like I do in my waking life, and learning this has helped me fine tune, make sense of, and live with this connectedness. That my life is full of so called interesting "coincidences" is a huge understatement. That I actively engage with my environment, respecting life and free will, and use educated guesses to inform my decisions is closer to the truth.

I'm often told that I am a lot. Not in a negative way, but more in a "how the hell do you do it" kind of way. It kinda confuses people at times I think at how I maintain my energy so high all the time, yet so calm simultaneously. I'm still not sure how to answer that in words, but I am getting better at describing my emotions openly, making sense of them internally, and moving through my life with more love than I ever thought possible. The things I experience now are so very much globs of icing on the cake, I reached a sort of internal peace within myself, that remains stable, that I know how to maintain, and that I know will not go away because it comes from me being a part of everything, a power source I've tapped into that isn't exactly individual but more collective in nature, and simply requires that I stay true to myself to continue, well, loving.

So what about my dreams? I write my dreams down almost every night. I'll usually wake up 3 or 4 or even 5 or 6 times to record the memories from my dreams, then I go back to sleep. I never worry about interpreting them when I'm still in a sleepy state, I just write what I remember down, and snooze off again.

They've been a wonderful avenue for me to get to a place within that I had been searching for all along, that had always been there, but that I needed to sort of be more open minded to understand, and so my dreams helped me with that. They also gave me more insight as to how others may look at me, because when I dream it's being myself while also watching myself, a self-movie.

For example, last night's dreams were particularly interesting and vivid. Each one seemed to showcase a part of the cores of my personality. My first dream dealt with my strong loyalty to all the relationships I consider important, the reason I have few friends, but I bond so well with them. My playful spirit was also quite active in this first dream. Another dream dealt with my strong connection to my family, the next dream dealt with my strong distaste of authority and active mental rebellion from anybody telling me how I should experience my life . My final dream I walked up a hill in my hometown alone and just gazed out at the moon, in awe and quiet wonder of all of existence.

This is of course just a snippet, and the detail I can remmeber by seeing what I wrote down is immense. Many times my dreams are more vivid than the most potent waking life memories I have.

Of course all this makes me think about perception and reality and how we shape our realities, but I'll spare you that for later. For me, my dreams aren't just the replay of the days events, or planning for the future. That plays a role to be sure, but my dreams at this point in my life are active memory creation. Of course I know that my dreams don't and won't happen exactly as they do in my waking life, but they are very potent memories nonetheless. Many times I lack the words to describe this feeling, which is much of the reason I draw now. I've reached a nice place where I exist in my dreams, not exactly lucid dreaming as much as being conscious and embracing what comes my way in my dreams. This allows me to do this better in my waking life too. I've also learned that dreams don't always come just from you, sometimes the thoughts others have of you can influence them greatly. I've had many dreams my whole life where I wake up and know exactly what someone is going through and what they are thinking about telling me. I never tell them this of course, but it does happen way more often than you might expect. Let's just say I'm not a big believer in many things in my life being "purely coincidence" anymore ha ha, and I'm quite intuitive, always have been.

So when I sleep, or even when I daydream, I've begun to realize that what my dreams are doing for me is allowing me to not only better make sense of and interpret the reality I am a part of, but my dreams also allow me to be a more active member in creating the life I want for myself, one full of love. That is cool!